#spn + mission

[shallowseeker]

Sam and Dean are grieving the loss of Mary, Jack, and Rowena very differently in 15x06 Golden Time.

Sam is throwing himself into the mission and rushing to rekindle the thing with Eileen. Dean, on the other hand...is stuck.

DEAN IN STASIS

INT. MEN OF LETTERS - KITCHEN - NIGHT

ONE: Dean is eating Jack-type cereal. The lack of Jack mentions are LOUD, y'all. Jack's death too painful to mention, much less face. That's why Dean will later default to talking about Bel as "code" for Jack.

When Cas died, Dean ate PB&J, and when [OMITTED] died, Dean ate cereal. Cocoa Crunch. That's a Jack-coded cereal in the script, as Jack was shown eating Crunch Cookie Crunch last season.

TWO, wow--that is one SERIOUSLY DEPRESSED man. Sam is taken aback by just how depressed and downtrodden Dean is beneath his barbed jokes. //

SAM, INCENSED

Sam is soooo frustrated and mad about it. Here Sam is, working SO hard, and Dean's given up. (Not to mention, Cas is giving Sam the silent treatment by proxy. Poor Sam, really.)

Dean's not allowed to give up. He won't. He can't. Per season 15's The Trap, that's not the Dean who raised Sam.

///

Dean doesn't rise to Sam's irritation, not even a little bit:

Not vindicated, just deflated.

So, Dean goes back to stress-eating and watching his stasis-oriented comfort series to escape it all. Dean plays up the act, eating messily.

///

Cas is...who knows where he is.

(fatalistic)

What is a fatalistic person? A fatalist is someone who feels that no matter what he or she does, the outcome will be the same because it's predetermined. Fatalists share a sense of being powerless to change the world. In philosophy, a fatalist is someone who holds specific beliefs about life, destiny, and the future.

Chuck is hostile. Dean's life is a hoax. Mary is dead. Jack is dead. The future is dead. Cas is dead to him. Cas left him. There's nothing left for Dean to have faith in anymore.

There is no future.

Sam can't deal with a fatalistic Dean, so he goes for a run. Dean grabs more cereal and continue la wallowing in despair.

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Meanwhile, Cas is finding a sense of renewed resolution

Dean may be fatalistic, but Cas becomes resolved to stand and fight Chuck.

(Cas has become seriously strong-willed over the course of the series. I'm so proud of him!)

The nice thing here is that Cas has BEEN fatalistic before, too. He was there in seasons 7-8, you know?

(In a way, Dean's where Cas himself was then! If Moriah-Dean is season 4-Cas, then Golden Time-Dean is easily a season 7-Cas.)

Anyway, because he's already weather existential crises and rebellion, Cas is better positioned to process, and he does.

(Sam, too, went through bouts of fatalism and despair, notably when he went AWOL on Kevin, "You're well and truly alone," etc, and purely driven by the need to escape, and then took on the Hell trials.)

Here, they're all suffering from the existential wound of Chuck and the loss of meaning in their lives, even Cas.

///

And Cas realizes something about Chuck's game, a resounding gong against his past escapism:

///

Off Cas, finally resolved.

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DEAN SPIRALLING

Cut back to Dean. Self-defeated:

15x06 Golden Time

It is not until Dean meets up with his dark mirror in Lee in 15x07 Last Call that his will to fight returns.

It's no accident that Lee bears some resemblance to the Dean in AU Michael's Nihilism world. Dean had some contentment (not true happiness) in the falseness of Rocky's Bar, for sure, but it existed primarily as a means of fleeing the storm that was raging outside.

It was an anorexic happiness, a contented world of potential with no risks.

Lee is like the ghost of Christmas Future, and Dean finally rejects becoming his worst self.

(All scripts here.) via @spnscripthunt

[walk-to-gallows]

So so funny that Castiel is an ancient celestial being who got too attached to some ants and ended up being subjected to the Winchesters 24/7 family drama.

[ardentpoop]

he said "can't argue with that one"

[bloodybarbrawl]

commission for "Bring It On! Occidental entertainment fan convention" 2023

[angelsdean]

cas's plan in 15x13 is so beyond fucked up. making jack "kill" him and when jack expresses concern and apprehension over this cas is like, lol it'll be fine like ??? WHAT IF IT'S NOT CAS!? WHAT IF YOU DIE AGAIN FOR GOOD AND IT'S JACK'S "FAULT"? like how do u think jack will feel abt that? how will he cope with that guilt??

JACK: Cas, I-I may not have a soul, but, uh, I know killing you is wrong. What if I screw up? CASTIEL: Well, then I'll be lost forever. But I think you'll do fine. 

cas, baby, these are not words of comfort lol

[heliotrope155]

Castiel swaps in and out of languages and Dean starts learning some outside of the dead or esoteric ones he knows from cases just to see if he can ever surprise Cas. Once in a while Cas teaches him something incorrect on purpose and laughs himself silly. Or Cas uses his knowledge of languages to say ridiculously soft shit to Dean, and informs Dean, who would like a translation, to pick up Finnish if he has the time.

[phrysic]

more mlp horror cas pretty please with a massive cherry on top

say no more

[sandsofsolstice]

happy 15th birthday to this guy and his doomed yaoi

[angelsberrymilk]

I could've fixed John Winchester. I would've shoved my fist so far up his ass I'd factory reset him and make him act better to his fucking kids and get his shite together like a man would. then I'd kiss him all over and let him sleep in my bed.

[shallowseeker]

I walked with you once upon a dream an' stuff

s4

Dean: * recognizes that dream Cas is the REAL Cas immediately

is not surprised to see Cas in his dream

is so keyed into Cas's emotional state that he knows something is wrong pretty immediately

the whole scene has the air of them being CAUGHT in a private place they go regularly

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And later in s5

And these lines... he could've played straight but chose to play like this: shy-but-pleased, like he's fishing for attention or more information about why Cas has come to visit him.

Dean (practically preening): Man, you gotta StOp PoKinG aRouND in My DrEaMs teehee*

(1) This seems to imply that Cas visits Dean in his dreams a lot more than we see. Like come on, "stop poking around in my dreams." And Dean is practically gleeful when Cas arrives in his dream, like that man is EXCITED.

There's something too in he follows it up with (2) a warning that Cas should be careful poking, cause Dean is definitely probably having sexy "me" time in his dreams on occasion that he is definitely bubbling over with excitement at the mere thought of Cas walking in on.

When Cas turns the conversation to more business/work matters, Dean's face drops, like he's disappointed that this isn't a pure social call.

[thefableddestiel]

My mind right now:

ok continue working on the lobster Destiel fic but also here’s a great long scene I just thought of for time travel Destiel and also wouldn’t it be so fun if Dean explored Europe in another fic? And also here’s a scene of Castiel threatening John Winchester because I need it and oh here’s another fic idea for a completely different fandom.

Like PLEASE you’re overloading me. Makes it so hard to finish anything.

[walk-to-gallows]

Jimmy Novak and John Winchester

[top-scar-maverick]

The 60s version od superwholock

[babyblue-mind]

mixed fandom doodles

[nobodymitskigabriel]

Gabriel just got done killing the guy who tortured him for years and sam says "welcome to the team :D" like some kind of walmart recruiter but gabriel who has more than two brain cells and knows what happens when you team up with the winchesters is like "be so fucking serious rn" and fucks off for some petty ass revenge man he was honestly so real for that.

[quiltedlovers]

little retrospective for the character of all time